July 29, 2009... celebration of the 29th Year of mah Life..

An amazing year of lovely series of events… is what I am leaving behind…. Life is sooo dam fast… dint realize till yesterday that I am getting older….

Guess… d small kid in me is sooo damm restless nd mischievous… that don’t encounter many situations in daily routine that would make me remind me of d age… ;-)

This special day got me so many reasons to smile, laugh and celebrate my “self”…the goodness in me and others… specially my dear ones…

One of those times when Tears appear so beautiful… nd leave you so much contended…

I have this strange habit of reminding ppl of my birthday… Yeah… sounds weird… but in all that I know… they smile while they put a reminder in their cell phones……. :-)

With the Enthu phatakaa that we both are… the celebration had started right from Saturday…

Saturday Nite with Team 10 at Hard Rock café was another beautiful evening… sheer Joy and Masti… Fun @ its peak….(“cheapness” is what we call it)…
This bond is getting stronger day by day… cos what it asks for is just love and care… nd the ability to be humorous to win over all challenges... nd difficulties of life…

Sunday went in shopping… D celeb of the day wanted to look special afterall.. ;-)

Monday – Tuesday – just flew…

My day started with a romantic candle lit Cake cutting… with my dear huby…

Those candles.. fresh flowers… everythin budled with loads of affection.. nd love… was sooo damm fulfilling… J nd it doesn’t end here…

When I opened my eyes in d morning…. Saw him standing wid another bunch of flowers with his glittering eyes..….

There could not have been a better sight than this…

Could not reach office in time.. was running behind d time… but chasing was so much fun today…

Reached office… nd I was excited about.. whats gonna be different this time… ??

Nd… ohh my gosh… it was different … d cabin had some dim light nd somthin shimmering… I opend d door… was sooo surprised… luking @ d way d whole cabin was decorated with fresh flowers.. balloons… Light effects… nd a lovely fragrance to top it up..

A wonderful buquet and behind that, was my gift waiting to be seen… Lovely photo frame with my favourite snap…

Hats off to you guys… !! that’s indeed sweet of you… !! Love you all.. !!

Day went so fast… so many calls… messages… kept me occupied till I received a call from Rajat… asking me to leave a little early…

Romantic Dinner is what he had planned… We went to the Golden Chariot… nd spent an awesome-twosome time………. after a long time…

We talked abt all crazy stuff…our old times… didn’t leave a chance to even comment on ppl who were around us..

Also Made the most of all d chances to get close nd cozy… Expressing that how much we love nd care…. Appreciating each other for being so wonderful…

Life is soo dammm beautiful… what it asks for is just Attention and Appreciation for all that it offers… J

M super excited for Teach India… Teach For India…

I am so dam excited for the induction tomorrow…nd kinda nervous too… strange but true…!!

I am looking forward to meeting the like minded people… and quite eager to know the plan of action…. the project details….. the NGO that I will be associated with and…of course the school that will be allotted…

I Have been browsing through some information and past experience on the net…came across an experience which was quite de-motivating since it was not managed very well… by the NGO authorities…
But I am sure it was not as depressing as seeing the problems in our education system and not doing anything about it…

And after all, there is always a scope for improvement… J

I am keeping my fingers crossed… I am certainly gonna give my best…

Nd Yess… I m also exploring an opportunity to get associated with TEACH FOR INDIA Initiative…. If that happens… then I am gonna be doing something which I have been thinking of doing from so many years…. It will be kinda dream come true… Just hope It works out for me… !!

Do all relationships have name… n do they need to have one… ???

Apart from some certain blood relationships… should all relations be named ? what is d fundamental need of doing so ?

I keep wondering… why should all relations necessarily have names…? Should we not just enjoy the flow…??

Sometimes I feel, apart from our blood relationships or few specific relationships (like guru-disciple or some professional relationships), all the other people we meet, our relationship with each one of them, by default, fall under “Friend Ship”….

What is this Friendship means? What is a friend ? what is a “special” friend ;-) ?? what is more than a friend …?  ;-)  seems like a teenage language… but surprisingly we all use it to classify our folks…

Are we trying to give a structure or are we kind of defining boundary by giving a tag / title to the chemistry that 2 people are going to share…as in how one suppose to address the other person… what should be these two people talking about in general… how much to get involved… How much should be “physical involvement”…n blah.. blahh ..blah…

Can there exist a relation… of pure love and care… n no malice…. With no secret agenda… with no great expectations other than few basic of course..(like communication and sharing & caring)… with both of them intending to go nowhere…. But to be with each other… there is certainly belongingness but no compulsions…. a relationship where you have nothing to loose… but just yourself…

I do not know whether to call it a “Friendship” because I don’t know till what level the relations are allowed to sprout in “Friendship”… Perhaps I see much more than just friendship in this…

Can Relations not exist in absolute freedom…? I have no idea… but I see a real divine beauty in such nameless relationship…. I strongly feel, all of us must have experienced this thing…may be at different levels or with different intensities….we may not really want to accept it though…  But I truly feel it does exist…

But Yess…!! one important question, are we, ourselves, at all prepared, for such kinda relationships… can we ever live in a relationship without an assurance which conventional relationships give us… 

Love….

Woowww.... Love..... Magic or Love..... 
Has always been an interesting subject to ponder over….Every time I think about love…. I get lost in its magic….  I thought I will try and pen down my today’s thoughts…

Love in natural state knows No Evaluation… No judgement… No Security or insecurity… No Possessions or Sacrifices… No Obsessions…. No man-made rules.. No religion or Philosophies….. No Relationships or Boundaries in relationships….

Love is is….

An utter madness which is beyond logics… it just happens… It’s a state in itself…
N Yess… noone can experience this state 24 X 7 … or for all 365 days…

We feel…. Love knows No PAIN….
Yet we sometimes we get hurt or we find ourselves in pain or irritation…. N realize that its now the side effect of LOVE… (on a lighter note…)

Now I am just thinking aloud….

Is it not our “Thinking” or “Ability to think” which makes us experience these kinds of side effect…. Is it not “Thinking” which probably complicates and spoils all the fun n playfulness….  Is it not our “ability to think” which further gives birth to issues like – Wants, Needs, Expectations or Desires… Like….Needing to be with the loved one always….. Wanting to possess…. Expecting love / care n blah blah in return… Desire to be the “only ONE” in his / her life….

Does it not start revolving around “I”… “me” …. Or “myself”…..

I feel somehow… In the event of “happening” (as in - when love is happening to us) Love comes in its true nature…. N the moment we start working upon it (as if it’s a project or a plan) it starts loosing its Innocence….the Beauty of Freedom with which it knocked our hearts… gets cramped…

“Relationship” …. Now, Here’s a catch… this is what man has devised to establish “Security” in Love…

When was the last time I loved someone without wanting to possess… when was the last time I intensely looked at someone without expecting a lovely glance in return…when was the Last time we fell in love with out beloved truly… madly and deeply….without judging / evaluating why do we love this person…..

I know, we can not eliminate the role of our “Ability to think” from our lives…. But then is there any chance that we can give it a direction… Consciously giving it a direction with the full awareness of what is the true nature of love….. a child like innocent love…

Allow love to touch your life…. Allow it stay on your mind…. let it not mix up with your logics… Rules…. Regulations….. etc etc… Don’t try working on it… Let it dance on its own n you will be a happy and blissful soul….

Love gives strength to embrace one and all….

We all are special…. So this valentine day…. I pray to God to bless all of us with the power of love which helps us look at everyone with empathy, compassion, care and Respect….
Don’t restrict your love to only your SOME one special… but rather extend it to the “special self” in each one who is around you….