Lost and lonely.. the mind is wandering …

Lost and lonely..the mind is wandering..

Directionless.. Aimless…

utterly Clueless..
The Commotion and its Resonance..
Deep down that I feel…
Isolates me from the social “me”..

Yes..!
So many of “me”s that I see in me..
Facing each other, not in peace..
Clatter & Clamour deep down in thoughts
Drenching the soul …
Tearing it apart…
Sometimes its moaning.. at times, a cunning laugh…


The Tides of darkness
incepting a fear…
carving an ugly scar
leaving me in despair…


Stranded me, yet dive again…
so sure, to find the HOPE within
The hope of Re-union…
Harmony and Peace
once emerged…
will refill me with Amity and Peace..

Every Night I dieee.....

Wearing a darker coat comes the night

Upon choosing to clasp, it starts appearing bright

Every night i die…
in d arms of fearless night…


Lost in d oneness… I see the soul…
flying like a kite…


It wanted be free… like nowhere to go..
None to see and nothing to show..

Companions they are…. of Timeless boundaries…
The sheer beauty of Zero…
and the purity of Soul…

The dawn then unfolds a whole new world…
Is it really new or its the magic of rejuvenated soul…

Feels… Nothing is as permanent as the beauty of “ZERO”…

Have you ever felt Zeroness within you… Whats it…??
I feel it at times…
Zero is blank…

not an absence….!! Rather, a space…
A state of mind… a feel… deep inside…
When I accept a loss… of something that I have been scared of loosing…. from a long time…
I feel Zeroness when I drop… drop… by choice !!!
Zero is a milestone of my journey from attachment to detachment…
Zero is not solitude inside… rather a discovery of harmony amongst a variety of chords in me…
Liberation of soul…
Zero is Solace… to eternity… !!!!

Toilet is one of the places where i feel more relaxed…

Do you agree with me.. ?
It sounds weird, but I think that’s where I can be myself…
Now, unlike guys… we girls get full privacy even when are doing our short programme ;-)

Well, jokes apart, the point here is, that is d time… those few minutes…noone is watching me… absolutely fearless… fear of being judged – for what I am doing and/or how I am doing…. ;-) a good peace of mind…
It’s is like… being with my “real” self… in real sense…
I can confront…
I can smile for no reasons...
Can smile how relaxed it feels after offloading everything…
And so do dam refreshing… like they say “Essey Bada Sukh nahin…”

Don’t know why it is like that, Biologically or psychologically…

But I am just thinking do we need such a place (toilet kinda) in our everyday life… Where we can be ourselves… where we can offload all the unwanted things… thoughts… nd yess… To offload, we will first need to learn Accept and Realize…
we can face d real “SELF”….. without any shame…
I don know if that place is our house… mom’s hug… temple… church... ??? Or may be TOILET it real sense…

But yess.... Pls FLUSH....
I am sure if that happens… Our Each day will start with a Refreshed SELF and mind…

The Secret by Rhonda Byrne

I have been into reading since last couple of years… I am not an obsessive reader. However, by now, I have read quite a few books, majority of which are non-fiction.
The first time that I heard of this book was 2 years back, during one of the training programs i happened to be attending. I surfed a lot about the subject that the book revolves around i.e “Law of Attraction”. I also had a look at the Video clips on Youtube. But the lazy “me” somehow postponed buying the copy.
Couple of months back, I was reminded of this book once again, while I was discussing with one of my friends. This time, the intentions of owning a copy was much stronger.
To my surprise, after 2 weeks, I got this book as my birthday gift from one of my dearest friends. I am sure; the “Law of Attraction” was the reason ;-)

Well, now that I had this copy. Believe me, I could wait no longer to start reading it… Its indeed a simple book to practise the “Speed Reading” (Radically Increasing your Reading speed - a new technique that I have been practising since last couple of months). This book is very simple and easy to understand. However please don’t misunderstand it as a mere “self help” book.
Byrne has made it a collective learning; about 29 co-contributors have shared their experiences and thoughts about the “Law of Attraction”. Her writing style is unconventional, you almost feel as if she is having a dialogue with you.
I have come across an interesting fact: Human mind is a thought factory which generates about 50,000- 60,000 thoughts per day…these thoughts are immensely powerful.
This book revolves around the philosophy of leading a positive life by using an unlimited potential of positive thoughts. If you can think about it, you certainly can achieve it. Here is how the book explains you –
“We understand that a television station’s transmission tower broadcasts via frequency, which is transformed into pictures. Most of us don’t really understand how it works, but we know that each channel has a frequency and when we tune into that frequency we see the pictures on our television.
You are a human transmission tower and you are more powerful than any television created on earth. Your transmission creates your life and creates the world. The frequency you transmit reaches beyond cities, beyond the world. It reverberates throughout the entire Universe. And you are transmitting that frequency with your thoughts. If you want to change anything in your life, change the channel and change the frequency by changing your thoughts.”
“Law of Attraction” claims to have its roots in quantum physics. According to this law, there exists a strong connection between the energies of thoughts and universe. Its all about how strong is our ‘willpower’. It’s all about the frequency and importantly, the ‘FAITH’.
Your current life is a result of your thoughts, you have been thinking… You can change your life conditions anytime. Only you can become the architect of the successful, healthy and wonderful life. This book further helps you with a mantra, Just 3 simple steps..

Step – I : ASK – Be clear in your mind about what you want and simply ask for it.
Step – II: BELIEVE – Start believing that you have received it. Its difficult to get a hang of it.. but its more of having FAITH and eliminating negative emotions like fear and doubts etc.…
Step – III: RECEIVE – Feel as if you own it and start feeling happy and grateful.

The author helps understand how one can use these steps and brings about a change – a way to possess abundance of Health, Wealth, Joy, Happiness, Money, Relationship and Youth.
Rhonda Byrne, in one of the chapters has emphasized a lot on being Appreciative and being grateful of what we possess. Attitude of Gratitude and an art of GIVING makes one a powerful magnet. The more you GIVE … the more you receive.
I have had a wonderful experience reading this book. I have become more conscious when I am thinking. I would certainly recommend you to buy a copy and experience it for yourself.

I am sure it will make a remarkable change in the way you think, and will certainly transform your life once you start experimenting and start receiving the benefits.

July 29, 2009... celebration of the 29th Year of mah Life..

An amazing year of lovely series of events… is what I am leaving behind…. Life is sooo dam fast… dint realize till yesterday that I am getting older….

Guess… d small kid in me is sooo damm restless nd mischievous… that don’t encounter many situations in daily routine that would make me remind me of d age… ;-)

This special day got me so many reasons to smile, laugh and celebrate my “self”…the goodness in me and others… specially my dear ones…

One of those times when Tears appear so beautiful… nd leave you so much contended…

I have this strange habit of reminding ppl of my birthday… Yeah… sounds weird… but in all that I know… they smile while they put a reminder in their cell phones……. :-)

With the Enthu phatakaa that we both are… the celebration had started right from Saturday…

Saturday Nite with Team 10 at Hard Rock café was another beautiful evening… sheer Joy and Masti… Fun @ its peak….(“cheapness” is what we call it)…
This bond is getting stronger day by day… cos what it asks for is just love and care… nd the ability to be humorous to win over all challenges... nd difficulties of life…

Sunday went in shopping… D celeb of the day wanted to look special afterall.. ;-)

Monday – Tuesday – just flew…

My day started with a romantic candle lit Cake cutting… with my dear huby…

Those candles.. fresh flowers… everythin budled with loads of affection.. nd love… was sooo damm fulfilling… J nd it doesn’t end here…

When I opened my eyes in d morning…. Saw him standing wid another bunch of flowers with his glittering eyes..….

There could not have been a better sight than this…

Could not reach office in time.. was running behind d time… but chasing was so much fun today…

Reached office… nd I was excited about.. whats gonna be different this time… ??

Nd… ohh my gosh… it was different … d cabin had some dim light nd somthin shimmering… I opend d door… was sooo surprised… luking @ d way d whole cabin was decorated with fresh flowers.. balloons… Light effects… nd a lovely fragrance to top it up..

A wonderful buquet and behind that, was my gift waiting to be seen… Lovely photo frame with my favourite snap…

Hats off to you guys… !! that’s indeed sweet of you… !! Love you all.. !!

Day went so fast… so many calls… messages… kept me occupied till I received a call from Rajat… asking me to leave a little early…

Romantic Dinner is what he had planned… We went to the Golden Chariot… nd spent an awesome-twosome time………. after a long time…

We talked abt all crazy stuff…our old times… didn’t leave a chance to even comment on ppl who were around us..

Also Made the most of all d chances to get close nd cozy… Expressing that how much we love nd care…. Appreciating each other for being so wonderful…

Life is soo dammm beautiful… what it asks for is just Attention and Appreciation for all that it offers… J

M super excited for Teach India… Teach For India…

I am so dam excited for the induction tomorrow…nd kinda nervous too… strange but true…!!

I am looking forward to meeting the like minded people… and quite eager to know the plan of action…. the project details….. the NGO that I will be associated with and…of course the school that will be allotted…

I Have been browsing through some information and past experience on the net…came across an experience which was quite de-motivating since it was not managed very well… by the NGO authorities…
But I am sure it was not as depressing as seeing the problems in our education system and not doing anything about it…

And after all, there is always a scope for improvement… J

I am keeping my fingers crossed… I am certainly gonna give my best…

Nd Yess… I m also exploring an opportunity to get associated with TEACH FOR INDIA Initiative…. If that happens… then I am gonna be doing something which I have been thinking of doing from so many years…. It will be kinda dream come true… Just hope It works out for me… !!